Wednesday, March 27, 2013
31 years ago
you left us on this day 31 years ago.
i've thought about you a lot this week as i finalise a huge closure in my life and the people who love me are helping me celebrate the happiness my life now holds. i wonder what it would be like to have you being a part of those celebrations.
and as always, at this time, i wonder if you have friends thinking of you, reminiscing about the good times, having a drink, making your favorite meal or playing your favorite song in your honor today.
i think about how it would be best for me to pay my respects. i used to go to the crematorium and just walk around, pick a rose and bring it home, but it never felt right. you're not there, your ashes were scattered and your free spirit never grounded with any plaque or whatnot.
i think i'll play some bob marley and the eagles tonight and have a drink for you. i imagine that something simple like that would be how you'd like to be remembered.
i think about mums day 31 years ago and how on earth she got through it and how i have an incomprehensible amount of love and respect for her.
i think about how the time passed since you died is longer than the time you lived and how very, very sad that thought is.
i love that picture above, thank you uncle colin for finding it deep in the archives of days long gone.
i love that you're looking at me, i love that your sporting your famous mo'. i love that we have the same eyes.
i love that there's evidence that we were once together.
in my thoughts always daddy, but especially today.